life as I know it...

SO I haven't blogged in a while.. sorry about that. It's hard for me to get used to updating my life on here..

I love my job I really do but sometimes I feel like I do SO SO much and don't get enough recognition. I mean they defintely tell me thank you and such but I feel like I seriously bust my ass for them every day and a random thank you isn't really enough. I put so much into my job, so much that I dream about it approximatley 3 times a week-ridiculous. I want to go back to school to pursue a carreer that I really want to do for the rest of my life. What that is.. I'm still not sure-which is frustrating in itself. I always thought I wanted to be a nurse. I love helping people, being there for them, I am good in high stress situations, I think quick and instantly react to a situation. Blood doesn't make me queezy, neither do needles or vomit.. I could totally be a nurse. I am unsure if the reason I am second guessing myself is because I have been denied 3 times to a program or that this is really not what I a want to do. Unfortunately I think it's the first. So I am really trying to take a step back and assess the situation, really think it through and make a decision of what will be best. I get so frustrated because I am going on 25 this year (woah.. that's crazy!) and I wish I was already finished with this part of my life. But I'm not so I guess I need to buckle down and get it situated right!?

My good friend had her baby Saturday morning. He is so precious. His name is Liam and I love him already! :) I can not wait to go visit with her again very soon and love on him and play with her other son Aiden! He is such a good boy! Kristen did a great job on raising him and I know she will do the same with Liam! She is a wonderful mom!

Gabriel is turning ONE on the 26th! YAY Birthday Boy!!! He is doing well with his treatments. They have finally returned from Oklahoma (yippie!) We got to see them last weekend and it was wonderful! I got to hold Gabriel for a little bit and it made my heart happy! :) I just can't get enough of him. I played with him while he was in his carseat hanging out while we all ate. He is so funny & cute! Isabel was trying to play with him and he pushed her away-so she tattled on him. HAHA It was so cute! a 3 year old tattling on an almost 1 year old for "hitting" her! so silly!

Someone else special has a birthday coming up soon... MY HUSBAND!!!! :) I'm not so sure what we are going to do OR what I am getting him because he won't say. BUT either way it's his special day in 4 days and I LOVE birthdays even when they aren't mine!